the 4 year cycle
Finally, it's the final day of the term again. I've lived through another 4 years of my life in Australia, away from home. Surprisingly enough, I did not feel the same euphoria as I did when I sat for my final 'A' Level exam paper. It just felt like this cycle is not ended yet, but that is for me to find out in the next few months time. Now, it is a matter of waiting for results and Honours invitations. I've got a conditional offer to do the Master of Actuarial Studies but I doubt I will be taking up the offer.
At first I thought such feelings are a consequence of knowing I WILL continue to take exams in the future, regardless whether it is my Actuarial exemption papers or coursework exams for graduate Economics courses. Perhaps I am having such feelings because I feel I am not ready to leave this place yet. Every year I meet new people and I get reminded of how I could have done my degree differently, or perhaps, maybe even studied at another uni in a different course. I wonder what my life would be like?
Yesterday night was the last Thursday night out before everyone goes home for the break. For the first time, I will not be going back at the same time as everyone else, ie. the last day of the hall's contract. I'll be staying back for graduation. YES! I'm so happy my parents can finally come to visit Australia. It has been a long wait and I just want to thank them by giving them a good holiday when they come here. I'll be going home with them after graduation too! Have not been travelling with them since I came to Australia.
Back from my sidetrack, now that everyone's slowly going away, I tell myself, " Is this my final farewell? OR am I to stay here longer?" There is a real possibility that I will never return. I'm so glad I caught up with my Econs classmates (everyone's Aussie except me) over some drinks. Didn't know they are such a fun bunch! Wished we had done more of these earlier. When I left them, I went to join my friends at another club. Met many people on the way. The queue was really long but just as I was about to get in, my best friend here , Kevin Kim (he's a Korean) came up to me, with an urgent face, and dragged me from the queue to a sidewalk. There, I found that the girl that he likes is just sitting on the ground, not in a good shape - too much drink. From that moment, my night was spent on taking care of other people instead of having possibly my last chance to be with my friends here. Life and its surprises.
After the end of my graduation, I'll be going home and looking for a job. I wonder where I'll be next. Big decisions to make soon. I wonder if we'll be close to each other again!
The 4 year cycle. First was my 4 years in Singapore. Next is my 4 years in Australia. Am I at the end of the cycle now?
At first I thought such feelings are a consequence of knowing I WILL continue to take exams in the future, regardless whether it is my Actuarial exemption papers or coursework exams for graduate Economics courses. Perhaps I am having such feelings because I feel I am not ready to leave this place yet. Every year I meet new people and I get reminded of how I could have done my degree differently, or perhaps, maybe even studied at another uni in a different course. I wonder what my life would be like?
Yesterday night was the last Thursday night out before everyone goes home for the break. For the first time, I will not be going back at the same time as everyone else, ie. the last day of the hall's contract. I'll be staying back for graduation. YES! I'm so happy my parents can finally come to visit Australia. It has been a long wait and I just want to thank them by giving them a good holiday when they come here. I'll be going home with them after graduation too! Have not been travelling with them since I came to Australia.
Back from my sidetrack, now that everyone's slowly going away, I tell myself, " Is this my final farewell? OR am I to stay here longer?" There is a real possibility that I will never return. I'm so glad I caught up with my Econs classmates (everyone's Aussie except me) over some drinks. Didn't know they are such a fun bunch! Wished we had done more of these earlier. When I left them, I went to join my friends at another club. Met many people on the way. The queue was really long but just as I was about to get in, my best friend here , Kevin Kim (he's a Korean) came up to me, with an urgent face, and dragged me from the queue to a sidewalk. There, I found that the girl that he likes is just sitting on the ground, not in a good shape - too much drink. From that moment, my night was spent on taking care of other people instead of having possibly my last chance to be with my friends here. Life and its surprises.
After the end of my graduation, I'll be going home and looking for a job. I wonder where I'll be next. Big decisions to make soon. I wonder if we'll be close to each other again!
The 4 year cycle. First was my 4 years in Singapore. Next is my 4 years in Australia. Am I at the end of the cycle now?
thoughts of tanoshi at 8:34 AM
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